There’s a man looking down at me
He covers up my head
Am I only sleeping?
Why am I ridden to this bed?
I look around for an answer
I look around for a prayer
I look around for an instant
Just to find that I’m not there
My friends are all gathering
It’s such a sad affair
Am I only dreaming?
Or are they really there?
I look around for an answer
I look around for a prayer
I look around for an instant
Just to find that I’m not there
(Solo)
I look around for an answer
I look around for a prayer
I look around for an instant
Just to find that I’m not there
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Notes: I had a neighbor named Lona who had a brain aneurysm and the doctors told her that she could live her whole life without any problem or she could have an operation that gave her a 90% chance of full recovery to remove the aneurysm. Because she had four kids and wanted to take care of the problem, she chose to have the operation. Unfortunately, she tragically died on the operating room table the week before Christmas.
Oddly, a few weeks after her funeral, I had a vivid dream in which she came to me and said, "I'm going to show you what happened to me and I want you to tell my kids." It was very freaky. In the dream I experienced being in this hospital bed and people covering up my head, then I was able to leave my (her) body and kind of float around the room looking back at the limp body on the bed see the nurses and doctors cleaning up. Later in the dream I experienced the feeling of being at the funeral and seeing all the people, but not being able to communicate with them. When I woke up, I had this song fully developed in my head and laid it down on my reel to reel. A few weeks later I invited Lona's sons to my place and played them the song and explained what had happened. They looked ghostly and I apologized, but said that I had made a commitment to her to share this experience with them.
In 2003, when I was rummaging through old tapes to find early versions of songs for my Emerald Green Universe album, I found this song, but it wouldn't play, so I had to bake the tape to listen. Listening to it made my whole body cringe with the remembrance of how the song came about, but I re-realized the unique qualities and power of the song. So, I re-learned it off of the old tape and re-recorded it. The vocals and guitars are very true to that original performance.
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Bass, Guitars, Percussion, Vocals: Joey Latimer
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